Marion LoGuidice: Sorry

Hi Vincent, what inspired "Sorry"?

Well, I felt like for years I was attracting the wrong kind of support. Situations where in order for me to get support, I felt as if I had to take care of the other person -- you know, keep them happy -- in order for them to stay interested in me enough to want to support me... I never felt that I was enough -- that I had to "do" something extra in order to be loved or supported or valued. I kept pulling in relationships and situations that were so degrading to my spirit and integrity... I would end in apologizing. 

When clearly it would be the other person who needed to apologize to me. But because I thought this was the only way to get support (that was all I knew) I was playing out the roll of the favorite royal subject to a lot of queens and kings.

When I reached my end of that game/myth that I was creating -- I started to say “No” to their outrageous requests of me that, of course, I could never ask of them. They lost interest in me and I started to no longer pull in all the "kings and queens." I walked through 500 miles of nothing for a while -- until I found my own tribe of support where I was valued and respected for who I truly am -- and not for what I can do for them -- finding a new home place to rest. 

That is it in a nut shell, that is what inspired that song. 
xxoo Marion Loguidice 

Tuesday, 5 January, 2010 

"Sorry"
by Marion LoGuidice

I could feel you shadow me
Touch my face
Like the peppermint breath of god
Oh it was cool but it had no place
To rest its grace when it came
And in the strange light of my youth burning
My spirit turning 

I crossed the bridge
To the highway
But I lost you there
I waved my arms
But you won't know where

And I searched the streets
I searched the woods
I searched the bottom of a well
Where all my wishes stood
And I searched the fog
And I searched the dream
But I couldn't find the one
The one who remembered me

All the useless things
I cling to in the mists of change
And what sustains a girl
When there's nothing in her world?

Defending her rainbow
And all my honesty
And my sincerity
Became like crippled 
Feet stumbling over me

And I started saying I'm sorry
I'm sorry all the time
I'm sorry I thought I had a the right
To demand back what was mine.

And I searched the streets
I searched the woods
I searched the bottom of a well
Where all my wishes stood
And I searched the fog
And I searched the dream
But I couldn't find the one
The one who remembered me

And I'm sorry for saying what I think is true
And I'm sorry for asking why you do what you do
And I'm sorry for thinking you might do what you say
And I'm sorry I thought I deserve to ask anyway
And I'm sorry I take up so much room when I cry
And I'm sorry I didn't shut my mouth when you lied
And I'm sorry that here is not where I belong
And I'm sorry it took me forty years too long

And I got so many “sorrys”
Slamming through my door
My rooms all jammed
And I cant find the window no more
I got so many “sorrys”

Hanging out my window pane
All the neighbors down there
Think I’m a woman insane

But I searched the streets
And I searched the woods 
And I searched the bottom of a well 
Where all my wishes stood
I search the fog 
And I searched the dream 
Until I finally found the one
The one who remembered me

I am a woman with no more apologies
I have beaten my heart to death with these
I am a woman with no more apologies

"Sorry" is on God's House 
and is available at
http://www.marionsmusic.com/